I lost my mom this past July. She was the glue that held the family together and the driving force behind our holiday celebrations.
Tonight I listened to Christmas music for the first time this season.

This Christmas is going to hurt.



There is a joy in me. It wants out. It wants to spread. It wants to rule the world.
I want to let it.



So, I decided that my happiness was my responsibility a long time ago. I’m happy because I want to be, and I keep myself around people and environments that facilitate my desired state. That being said, it does not mean that others don’t contribute to said state.
This week has been GLORIOUS! All but one child is here with me, the spouse also, work is going incredibly well, and I have become friends with some of the most thoughtful and generous souls. I have spent the entire week in fellowship. As far as contributions are concerned, my cup runneth over. I feel like I’m about to pop and spew happy everywhere. “HAPPY HERE, GET YA FREE HAPPY HERE! SNAG A HUG AND SOME HAPPY, GOT YA RIGHT HERE!”
And because I’m happy to begin with, it just stacks. Like gaming stats or something. I am so thankful for the people around me. I want to share the joy and the love. So smiles everywhere, and favors galore.
To those around me

Thank you for being part of my happy :)

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