The River
Feb 27
2009
I sit and watch the water go by
In its depths, images from my mind swirl
The water mesmerizes me by giving life to the beauty around me
Trees are green and the banks a fertile black
The fish swim through the water – faster downstream than up
I hear the crickets and the birds
A canoe goes by
They do not see me
I am a part of the land, blended with the underbrush and dirt
Silence
No sign that man exists here
A breeze rustles the stiff palmettos behind me
Across the water there are woods
Thick
I cannot see into them
I cannot see what they contain
The lighter pebbles on the bottom move with the current and flow on to the Gulf
This place clears my mind and gives me peace
I am free again
Here, I can think and dream
The silence comforts me
When I am here alone, I think of others and how they would like it here
I am at home here
The trees are my walls, the bank my floor, and the balconies of the trees my ceiling
The life of the river surrounds me
When the animals come I watch them too
The ears that move about seeking sound
It is downstream
The wind blows upstream
It does not see or hear me
The breeze hits the leaves and it bounds away
I see the hawk
The freedom penetrates me and lifts me higher
I see the small handprints in the dirt close to the water
The larger pawprints further up made last night
They come here to drink too
The breeze is cool as it lifts my hair from my neck
I close my eyes and listen to the life that I am a part of
My mind’s eye comes alive and I see the leaves rustle
The squirrels jump
The fish jump from the water in a graceful arc
The sun touches my back and I feel it
Its warm hand massaging me
I open my eyes
The sun does a ballet upon the water as it flows
I am the only human element here
A log floats by turning over and over and over
Again the leaves chatter with excitement
The wind moves my hair above me
A cloud scuttles across the sky
I shiver
It’s time to go now
I have had my share of God’s peace
To Fight the Darkness
Jan 17
2009
i wake to find
i cant clear my mind
of this compulsion for sex and alcohol
the only desires i can presently define.
my gentle lover holds me and tells me
“It wont last long.
The sunshine that outlines the shadows on your soul
will fade,
and the rain that you so desperately love
will return
to drown those shadows in puddles
that you can jump in
and laugh again.”
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Good Morning
Jan 17
2009
In the kitchen
Making Coffee
a little chilly
i’m cold natured…
his hand
the small of my back
so warm
on my cool skin
just in passing
a light touch
brushing my person
igniting my soul…
a silent explosion
in my chest
takes my breath
radiates to all of me
so much feeling
so light
so strong
so hard
so his.
Tags: Poems
Too Long
Oct 5
2008
Alone forever is what she fears
Her face stained by red streaked tears.
Born in time when birth was sin
Abandoned by death again and again
Haunted by memories of the past
So long ago were these shadows cast
Dimmed by time’s eternal mist
Mortal wounds too many to list.
At first too young to understand
Her forced sacrifice to the land
But not accepted by the gods
And with her tribe was set at odds
From this rape was born a child
A little girl, ugly but mild
They lived in peace for many years
But they were found; what she most feared
Two women subject to gruesome slaughter
Thus she mourned her first daughter.
Then mad with grief did she wander
To and fro, here and yonder
She was killed and didn’t care
She came to know what was despair
Her sanity returned in time
In the arms of a hunter fine
He loved her youthfulness of face
And asked her many times of her race
But of this she couldn’t say
For all of them had passed away
Their language dead but spoken still
By a woman that cannot be killed.
Their descendents with willful pride
Founded a nation strong and wise
Her many sons by her fine hunter
Built great cities full of wonder
She observed through its formation
The forgotten mother of this great nation
And watched it crumble with chagrin
For it had rotted from within.
The world moved on but she stays the same
Nothing changes but her name
It becomes harder to disappear
And come back again without the fear
Of someone finding out what she is
And bringing attention she can’t forgive
As this is what had come to pass
She fell in love and gave at last
Her history to a smart fellow
Quiet, loving, kind and mellow
Who unraveled the reasons below
Her bloody tears and sought to know
With the knowledge that he did find
In what way to best serve mankind.
A man with no children of his own,
He made of her, seed to be grown
With the knowledge from her core
He gave them life and so much more.
Twin boys she bore 5 yrs apart
And then a daughter, to mend her heart.
A mother watches her children grow
But is alarmed because it’s too slow
But he takes her by the hand
And tells her that it’s all been planned
They will go to the best of schools
And be taught how to rule.
So she accepts her children’s leaving
Tries not to give in to hopeless grieving
She focuses on current events
The colonization and how it went.
And what happened when some returned
She sees her children, and is very concerned
While being trained to lead others
They have forgotten she is their mother.
Upon their return to planet Earth
They bring war to their place of birth
She finds that her husband dear
Has betrayed her out of fear
He explains what he has done
And she forgives out of love
Her little ones were up in space
To the benefit of the human race
The end result of such a war
The loss of life and so much more
She went out to find her kin
And never saw her husband again
He was killed in all the bombing
And once again she was filled with longing
For the death so long denied.
So many eons she had tried
To live like others of her race
Only to be slapped in the face
By time and circumstance.
She then took the chance
To fade into obscurity
Known only by the name, Ruby.
So much lived and so much lost
Surely too dear is this cost
For one soul to pay for life
When all she wants to do is die?
For many years she stays in seclusion
Warded against all intrusion
Feeling sorry for herself
She puts emotion on a shelf
But it creeps back into her mind
And one day she does find
Each thing struggles to keep its life
Though she is cursed, unable to die
She will rejoice with each sunrise
For she can walk underneath the light
Unlike the creatures of the night.
They come to her for sustenance
For they can drink without recompense.
For centuries the legend grows
Many have heard but very few know
But eventually it reaches ears
That vaguely remember rubied tears.
And a voice that soothed all hurt
Of a little boy when he was smeared with dirt
The words spoken that only they understood
From a tribe far to the north in ancient woods….
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