i wake to find
i cant clear my mind
of this compulsion for sex and alcohol
the only desires i can presently define.
my gentle lover holds me and tells me
“It wont last long.
The sunshine that outlines the shadows on your soul
will fade,
and the rain that you so desperately love
will return
to drown those shadows in puddles
that you can jump in
and laugh again.”
my rock
my foundation
my physical salvation
u hear me
hold me
save me
lay me
love me
honor and cherish me
God made us one
to be never undone
let no man
tear asunder
darkness falling
but you are calling
me back to sanity
reality
family
love
home
self
hope
Many thanks to Lacaille D’Ardiente for the help getting my smiley plug in working. Talk about banging your head :argh: . Please pay her blog a visit on my behalf @ http://swordian.com :^5:
Get more smilies
Get xdcc server up
Add a drive to the server (best if done before xdcc server is running)
Fix SEO data at AE
Review the data my dad gave me
Study calculus and Chemistry for the GRE
Get my web business going
Finish White Garden for AE
Set up automated back ups of my server databases
…
Gah, I’m busier than I thought
Ooops, forgot something
Go through old written stuff and add it under Mindwalks