I feel like I have stumbled upon a spent battlefield. I am ignorant of all positions, and unwilling to choose sides. All I can do is pick up the pieces. My tears fall on shards of solidarity. So much pain. Why can’t I be a thick mist that permeates everything, gently soothing parched lands and bringing comfort. God, please, just let me be what they need.
Category:Life in General
Self Explanitory
Constructive Crypticism
Ummm, yeah…
Apparently my page headings are a bit cryptic.
I wanted to make browsing my blog a bit like exploring a fantastic domain (as in a domain name, i.e. isengaurd.com). So the page, tag and category names are such as one would experience while wandering the realm. Here is an explanation of the titles, mainly what they link to and why I names them what I did.
Destinations:
This is a signpost that you might find directing you to different places in the domain. Like villages in a kingdom, each page represented has different things to offer a visitor. The pages are as follows:
About: Self explanatory. It’s about me and my blog.
Listless Drifters: Well, maybe not so listless as they have found their way here. This page lists the users on the site and a few statistics. It’s usually only me, much to my dismay…
Mindwalks: Also fairly self explanatory. This page is where I wax philosophical about anything and everything.
Poems: Self explanatory. Lists poetry I have written and published on the site.
Send a Message in a Bottle: Hehehe, it’s a contact form. Another way to drop me a line if you don’t want to leave a public comment.
Wandering Eyes: As you tour my domain, you will see many different things. This is a photo gallery of my family and places I love. Let your eyes wander over what I hold dear ^^
Next up is Alternate Routes, usually seen as categories on most wordpress documents. It’s a different way to get to the individual posts on the various pages. Kind of like taking the backroads to a favorite hang out in a nearby town. The headings are about exactly what they say they are about.
Obscure Passages is exactly that. They are paths less traveled, but lead to great places.
Lost Days. Hehehehe. Obviously it’s a calendar that highlights the days I post. But as I post so infrequently, most days are not highlighted. They are ‘lost.’ So I named it for the majority 😉
Drifters Passing By is an applet that summarizes who is visiting my domain. All to few, alas.
Mists of Direction is a cloud applet that I really like. All the categories that I post under are listed here. Some tags too as well I think. And like all clouds, its misty, but it takes you somewhere too.
Anyone who reads my posts can tell I like to play with words and use them in unorthodox ways. Plays on words, doubletalk, alliteration, spelling, and usage can all be manipulated to give common words different meanings depending on context. I love word games, and even the title of this post twists things up a bit. But the mood and meaning of the titles is always wrapped around the heart of the post, and it can be said that they set the mindset of the reader.
My father told me that I would never have a greater weapon than the English language. If not for him and this advice, this blog would be very different. Thank you Daddy. 🙂
Out of the Mouths of Babes…
I showed the pictures Cass drew to represent me to my youngest son, age 14. His response? “Ummmm, yeah. A little less Tinkerbelle and a lot more G.I. Joe…”
Returning the Favor
An online friend of mine who goes by the nickname CassiusOS drew a cartoon of me. He looked at my picture and then applied his impression of my personality. The pics are here:
So in return, I wrote for him using his method of personality application:
I wish I could draw for you
days of perfect time so true
Each scape of wonders to hold dear
my pen and paper would make clear
what my mind’s eye has in view
for my lovely, I’m drawn to you.
A Candle in the Window
I have a friend who is going through a very bad time right now. I wrote this in response to a LiveJournal post she made.
There are prayers for you here…
“God, I don’t know where I’m going to get the strength.” – Yes you do. you have already gone past the hardest part. Making the decision. That takes much strength and you are already there. I admire the strength in you. And if you need a little more, you can have mine 🙂
“a man who is not evil and not horrible” – The fact that you can say this, shows just how generous and forgiving you are. Don’t let a jaded relationship destroy this. It is a rare gem – protect it and keep it shining. If you can’t right now, I will hold it for you.
“I cry at night when I think about everything.” – Do not be ashamed of your tears. They are the only physical release we have for intangible stress. There is nothing wrong with a good cry. In your situation, crying is a good thing. If you find you have lost your tears, I will cry for you.
“A lot I’m going to be scarred a bit over.” – Yes, this will leave its mark on you. DO NOT even think that your failure to voice your objections is your fault. It simply is not in your nature. What you have endured is a cycle of abuse, and is in no way, shape, form, or fashion your error. He took for granted your continuing acceptance. It is mental abuse in its most subtle form. You will heal. And it may scar you. But i don’t think it is in your nature to be bitter, or keep your pain for company. If you change for the worse because of this, I will love you anyway.
Isen